Do you have someone in your life that seems to be angry, never wants to do anything, always tired, arguing frequently, not able to keep up with their normal schedule?
Is that person more emotional or less emotional? Do they only get out when they have to? Do they put stuff off until they can’t anymore? Do they look like their whole body has changed maybe like they are struggling with every step?
Depression is a real thing, I have been praying for Krissie and family today. As a Christian I never thought depression could hit me or any other Christian in fact. What I learned a year ago is that Christians especially those whose parents work for Christian organizations or who are pastors kids learn how to hide it well. Christians who are afraid to show it hide it well as well.
I’m a Christian and I have depression, but it goes far deeper than that. I have PTSD from childhood abuse and rape in my mid 20s, borderline personality disorder (sometimes linked to trauma), bi-polar 2 that’s fun deep depression and then 4 or more days of utter chaos in your head, anxiety oh yeah a fun one….
I write this because right now I am in a pretty bad depression, I feel as though no one notices. I feel ignored or thought bad about by the people who live around me. I feel like there’s very few people who even begin to understand. I’m very thankful for a wise friend. I scared another friend today I could hear it in her voice. The most dear lady from my church sees my struggle but doesn’t know how to help. My family has differing words for me and so does my town. Lazy, not wanting to work, wants to feed off the system…. the list goes on.
The reason my house is more than messy, I hide, I don’t talk to people or I argue. I can be very negative. And many other things; would you like to know? My friends I have been depressed and am finally beginning to get the right treatment but it’s going to take a while. It’s not over night that things change, it’s not over a few days it takes a long time. Please be kind and patient with me as I work through this. I also have a concussive thing from 2017 yes sometimes they hold on and sometimes I don’t have the words and I’m sorry when I don’t.
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